Thursday, October 22, 2009 at8:52 PM
Hardwork. Lets face it. How many of us are willing to put in the extra effort to go the extra mile? Having to put in that much more of energy physically or mentally can be seen as unnecessary. We do realise the importance of hardwork yet laziness engulf us. How is that even possible? The undefined nature of Human.
Our brain functions in the most impressive manner. Knowing that something is right yet we do not execute it and vice versa. It is said that we use less than 1% of our brain yet such mind boggling behaviour characteristics arises. What more if we utilise the remainding brain power that is obscure.
However, it does not mean that we do not know to differentiate what is morally right or wrong. Basic respect, responsiblity and courtesy are expected to be within us. Being an adult or even as a young adult, we should know what to do.
I'm unable to carry on as the inspiration is gone. Just needed to bring one point across. hais~ anyways! i'm currently addicted to La Roux (Quicksand) and Medina You and I). hehes..
Private High Musical!
Monday, September 28, 2009 at10:13 PM
this is who i am
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Live life to the fullest, live with no regrets and happiness is always there. To be honest, it was once a delusional thought of mine. Never once I tried to live my life to the fullest since there were many things that I regretted not doing or doing it half heartedly. Everytime when I achieved happiness, I would be engulfed with depression. Nothing seems to be right in my life.
The strong, cheerful exterior that I potrayed was an escape from the truth that lies beneath. I have always kept my life story behind closed doors. I was ashamed and still ashamed of the fact. Never did once I appreciate the life that God has planned out for me.
Suicide. A pernicious thought that ran through my head when depression sets in. I was introvert and developed a mild anti social behaviour. I saw everyone as someone who will eventually betray me and leave me alone in the world. I just kept quite in class, have my meals alone and return home after school. School was not my cup of tea. Sometimes, I would cry myself to sleep as I saw a bleaked future for me. I sensed no love.
Home was routine. Leaving with my niece, my brother and my mother. Mum would work from morning till midnight. Brother worked from morning till night. I had to live my life as grown up at a tender age. Fetching my niece, do house chores, school work and at times cook for myself & niece. Independence was the key. I would compare myself with other kids of my age, where they had the luxury of a family, playtime and friends. Never I would I see myself as I am today.
I guess taking a leap of faith and facing difficulties with patience have helped me. Learning to trust strangers, making friends and letting them (most importantly myself) that my family background doesn't define my future but myself. If there is faith and belief, many wonders can be accomplished. All those challenges in my life are turning point of who I am today.
Every cloud has a silver lining. Every dog has it's day. For all the bad things that happens, there is always something good in return. I believe in it because I have seen it happening to me. The first step is difficult but once that step is taken, there are endless possibilities.
Of course I would not forget those obstacles. It stills haunt me today but I have moved on. Now, my cheerful, positive self is who I am. It's no longer a fake canvas that hides what I feel within. I am living my life to the fullest by appreciating everything around me including failures. I do have regrets but not to an extent that it would affect me emotionally and psychologically. And I believe that God has given me the happiness that I need all these years. They have always been around me. Being with me all this while. They have made me smile.
My Family.
My Friends.
My Teachers.
My Kids.
ps: never assume that someone who is always smiling is happy. It could be a camouflage.
Pictures!
Saturday, September 26, 2009 at9:46 PM
the other pictures are in my facebook. =))
go figure.
2009 CL camp with a lil' something post
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yozz. Been and back from another CL camp. nothing much to say. Hopefully they have gained something valuable from the camp itself. If not, there is still time to catch up :) will post and upload on facebook the pictures when i am more upbeat 8D
Recently, I've posted something regarding the break up of relationship in perspective of time and distance, whereby friends drift apart due to other commitments and the inability to make time to meet up or update one another on the happenings of their lives.
So today's post will be regarding friendship severance due to having discord that strains the relationship in terms of trust & respect and changing perception of oneself towards others vice versa.
In our life time of having friends, I believe that there was an instance of dissension in making a decision or in any other situations. Agreeing upon a particular solution, event, programmes, games etc. There will be a plausibility of animosity with an increase number of participation as there is an increase in the conflicting opinions.
Like all other relationship (be it formal / informal), friendship is built upon trust and respect. Without it, the relation will not work out for the best. Trust and respect are to be earned. It is developed over a period of time and has the likelihood to be loss if not maintain with delicate care. Most of the time, people loses their trust due to betrayal of another party. Like how we see on the television, when trust is loss, it is difficult to gain it back again as the person's (the hurt) perception has changed. Similarly with respect.
A best scenario of when trust and respect are lost in a friendship is due to conflict of interest. Be it personal or work.Since conflicts between ideas occurs at a daily basis, it can be seen in 2 main perspectives-positive or negative. Conflicts are inevitable in a human life be in school, at home or the work place. It's everywhere.
The question is: How do we manage the conflict to satisfy the needs of all or at least most?
Avoidance.Accomodation.Collaboration.Compromise.Competition---The five strategies of managing conflicts. Even though there are the presence of the different startegies that we can adopt to manage a conflict, the most important keys are communication and understanding. Friends need to understand each other position and communicate heart to heart of the issues at hand. Initially, acceptance is difficult but with time and learning to see in the person's perspective, you will comprehend. It's about give and take.
If a conflict is not manage, especially among friends, the loss of trust and respect will ensue. After a period of time, it is imminent.A friendship is sever. Is sacrificing friendship that is framed overtime for work interest worth it? It is a matter of individual judgement. Personally, I would give in to whoever such that the friendship will not be compromised because of my selfish thoughts.
We now look at the changed perception of oneself towards others. It is natural as humans to see others as nugatory. A self compliment. There is always a limit of how we see others. We must not appear to be boastful or arrogant. And that strong opinion of ours should not be imposed onto others. We have to draw a line with respect to a person feeling and thoughts of themselves. Even though the assumption that we make of the person is the truth. We do not congregate and have a silent strike. If indeed we wish for a better change in the person's persona, talk to him/her. As there is trust in a friendship, it will work out sooner or later. Time will tell.
I guess thats all for now. Will update on other day. Below is next weeks' programmes for me :D
- 29th CP Award
- 30th Event Briefing
- 1st till 3rd Event
- 3rd(Tentatively) First Instructors' Meeting
- 4th Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs Movie
ps: I need to prepare my Full Uniform! i think i misplaced my boots--- i can't find them T_T
Relationship
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 at10:51 PM
Being apart from the person / people you care without constant hellos causes a strain to the relationship. I've seen my bestfriends drift away as we are separated by location even though we are still in this tiny little island.The memories of the time we have with each other are those that help us to keep in contact but how much does memories help in maintaining the relationship? It feels akward when we meet to talk. Like...no link? i do not how to describe the feeling.
Having experience it again now (with my Unit), i guess it takes lots of effort to keep the bond together. My CIBTC squadmate once said that planning and executing the meet ups takes lots of effort and time, but if the effort and time is worth keeping the friendship, it would not matter. I do feel guilty at times not being able to make it even after i've agreed upon it like weeks/months before. There is always something urgent that has to crop up last minute. To make it even worse, i never plan a meet up before. haha! xp
Now on hand i have to plan:
one for my poly cliques. ---Gmax
one for my Falcon. --- movies? eating?
one for my 2 girlfrens. --- definitely shopping and eating.
maybe one for the movie freaks. --obviously movie.
and maybe one for the musketeers which will be like at the end of the year. ---as usual chit chats.
Hopefully, i will keep to my promise and meet up with people that i know to keep that friendship last as long as i can.
Anyways, yesterday i went to visit my god-grandmother. After my god uncle sudden death, she's been forgetful. Throughout the conversations she kept asking my mum where we are living now. I couldn't help myself but to giggle. It's a weird feeling knowing that someone you care have forgotten you. I mean, she can't even remember her own granddaughter that she has taken care for the last 20+ years. sad but true. May she be in good health and most importantly remembering us.
Worry and Goodbye
Thursday, September 10, 2009 at10:27 PM
I'm currently thinking about which area of nursing that i want to pursuit after my graduation. There are a few options but i'm worried about not being able to cope as a Staff Nurse. I guess, being a student nurse is about being useless and practice with mistakes. The moment we graduate, with that particular diploma, the entire world seems to be on our shoulders. From a simple talking on the phone to major procedures, we are accountable. Heavy responsibilities.
PRCP is 3 mths away. It does seem to be far away yet time is moving so fast that every day doesn't consist of 24 hours anymore. I'm wondering if i'm prepared to have my PRCP. I feel that i'm not prepared.
Anyway! The fasting month is ending and next week is Hari Raya. Can you imagine how fast time passes by now? i'm heading back to m'sia for Raya. I'm so excited. The fireworks, the lamps and night life of waiting for the sunrise. It's a moment that i look forward to every year.
ps: Chan Wei Chun Vincent is leaving us for his virgin trip out of Singapore to Thailand tomorrow. Wishing him a safe and fun attachment. Will see him back in Singapore in 3 mths time. You better bring back something for us. If not...you are going to get it. Especially after abandoning us today. hahaha . Take care babe!
We will remember you Uncle.
Update Daisies.
Sunday, September 06, 2009 at12:30 AM
Hey PeePol! I'm back! Been occupied with attachment. First and foremost let me say this, Emergency Department is NOT for me. Looking @ their workload and the pace, i think i will collapse. tsktsk. However, the NCs and staffs, there are Friendly! it's one of those rare moments for attachments that you will have friendly, approachable staffs. Monday onwards will be Major OT which i guess will not be compatible with me either xp.
Anyways, for the last 2 weeks, my weekends were spent for NPCC. Just to waste time so that i won't be able to think about hunger and thirst. Distraction baby. Distraction. Been to ATC as medic; had a blast time and today headed down to Chung Cheng High (Main) which is freakingly secluded to help out as a Judge for their CSI competition! The concept is fun. Furthermore, the story line is sooooo drama! Enjoyed myself there. It's an eye opener for both events. haha~ too bad next weekend i have nothing on. So might just go out for fun? I don't know.
umm~ waiting for my final year results. i'm not sure how i will fair this time round (2 out of the 5 papers were killers), hopefully i can gain back my Bs? hoho! Waiting for PRCP option form to be out that seems to take forever for SGH. i guess nothing much for my life. It's routine now. Weekdays work. Weekends rest. mundane yet i'm appreciating every moment of it.
dilemma. dilemma. dilemma. dilemma.
Fasting month
Monday, August 24, 2009 at9:40 PM
Happy Fasting to all of the Muslims. =D
Anyways, almost failed a module today because of me overlooking the subject that needed to be studied. ya, i revised the wrong module. hahaha...however, i spent 1 hr of revision like mad! memorising all the facts and vomit it all out during the papers. There were a few that i couldn't answer. I pulled throughout the paper. yupsyups.
tomorrow is another difficult paper. With many many facts, procedures, treatments, symptoms etc. =))
ps: i found this wordpress about islam so if you are interested please do read. it's in english ^^. link can be found at my links page.
